where's my wagon?

I am so far off the weight loss wagon that I cannot even find it anymore! I am going through a no appetite phase which sounds good in theory. In reality it means that I am hungry, but since nothing sounds good I snack on unhealthy foods to curb the hunger. I am not cooking and planning, just snacking. BAD! I have been fighting a migraine for a few days so this is making me very tired which in turn keeps me from exercising. Aunt Flo is on her way out (finally!) so maybe I can get back on track. The worst part of it all is that I have to go through sugar withdrawal all over again. bleh!

Weight loss is NO FUN!

Why is it that putting the weight ON is filled with ooey, gooey goodness, but the taking it off is, well, not? The trip to chubbyville was a lot more fun than the one to the land of the lean. I did really well on Wednesday and Thursday. And last night I got a candy bar. And today breakfast was a second candy bar and a cup of coffee. Not much nutritional value there! Dinner was pizza. Where, oh where has my willpower gone?? Tomorrow is my mom's birthday and I made her chocolate covered cherries, marshmallows and pretzels. I nibbled on a few. And snacked o a few more. *hangs head in shame* Then my niece came over and we made her a few candies and, well, you know the rest.

Tomorrow is a new day and I hope to do better. Though I will be up early and a Pepsi is already calling my name. Not the same Pepsi that I had tonight either, but a fountain one. MMMM Nothing tastes better than an ice cold fountain Pepsi. Sunday I will be good. If not, then Monday for sure!

Gym today!

I went to the gym today!! Go me! I did not sleep well last night so I was debating on whether or not to take a nap. I decided to go to the gym instead of nap!!! And I am down 1 more pound for a total of 6-lbs!! WOO HOO!!! It feels good to do something healthy for myself. I want to go to the gym more but I have to ask my dr about it tomorrow. I am not supposed to exercise "too much" but I am not really sure what that means. I should know tomorrow though!

A Speedbump

Right after I posted that the scale moved I went and gorged on junk food. Go figure!! I had sodas, fried chicken, cupcakes, brats, and other yummy unhealthy foods. I have no idea what possessed me to eat like I was on death row, but I did. And it is over now. Today I jumped back up on the horse and am doing my best. I am not going to allow myself to get discouraged over this most recent set back. I am going to work harder at eating healthy and exercising. At least until the next food craving hits.........

The scale is moving!!!

It is about time! The scale is moving.....in the right direction, that is. Originally I had lost 5-lbs but I quickly gained them back. I had assumed that it was because of my pending visit from aunt flo, but she has yet to arrive (due tomorrow-ish) but lo, and behold, the scale moved today. I am down about 3-lbs and I am hoping that when PMS and AF leave it may move some more. It is so exciting to see some results!!! I cut down more on the carbs and that seems to have helped me. I am one of those really lucky women that have PCOS and carbs are a no-no for me. Well, unhealthy carbs anyway. And not too much of the good ones either. I am also walking more so that helps too. Now I need to get my butt in gear and start exercising ! BLEH!!!

well..............

I have kind of avoided posting cause I am not doing as well as I should be. Though I am not doing too bad either. Aunt Flo is knocking on my door so I am fighting cravings and bloating. I am really hoping that once she is gone I can see some movement on the scale. If I don't lose any weight soon I am going to buy a bag of large peanut M&Ms and a 44 oz Pepsi!

I must admit that I do feel better without all of the sugar and salt. I rarely have cravings and I have more energy. And it is no longer a chore to eat healthy. I just hope that it works!!!

Not so yay me.....

Yesterday I helped my mom move and we were so busy I did not eat well. I usually eat 4-5 small meals a day but yesterday I had 3 larger meals. We had pizza but I chose 2 thin slices so that was good of me. (pats self on back) But I had 2 large glasses of Pepsi. (hangs head in shame) Then for dinner I ate KFC. And no, it was not grilled. But instead of mashed potatoes and gravy I had corn and green beans. That has to balance out the 2 pieces of chicken, doesn't it??? And I drank water with dinner too!

All in all I am learning to make healthier choices. And today I am starting it out right with a TBLT (turkey bacon lettuce tomato) sandwich for breakfast. Hopefully this week I see some changes in the scale or my clothing. I need something to kep me motivated!

Yay me!

Okay, so I am not losing much right now. I really need to exercise but I have put it off. Next week I plan on getting on an exercise schedule. My husband and the other guy doing this diet have lost 15 lbs each. I am still at 5 lbs. I hate them! ;-) I am also getting ready to have a monthly guest so that probably accounts for a few pounds. That's my story and I am sticking to it!!!!

Anyway, for the "yay me" part. I had a really crummy day today. I mean REALLY bad! My first instinct was to get a Pepsi and maybe some ice cream. Or fried chicken. Something yummy. But I didn't!! Seriously, this is a huge step for me! Especially considering the scale isn't moving like it should. And I had a second "yay me" moment today. I ordered a grilled chicken sandwich and unsweetened tea from Steak n' Shake. When I go to the window she handed me a SWEET tea. Yummy goodness! But I returned it and asked for unsweetened. Do you have any idea how hard that was??? I deserve a medal! Or at least a pat on the back. Or cheesecake!

Back on track!

After a bad day of cravings I am back on track! This is a first for me. I am one of those that mess up and then quit altogether. Jumping back on the bandwagon is not easy for me but with this diet it was easy. In just one week I have learned to like new foods. What was once a diet of sugar, salt and Pepsi is now one of whole grains, lean proteins and veggies. And I like it!! I am now searching for more recipes so that I can keep it interesting. And I need to start exercising. I have promised myself that I would go to the gym at least once this week. Maybe tomorrow........

starting to struggle

Today I am beginning to struggle. I am craving something fried or something sweet. Well, really just about anything. But I am trying so hard to be good!!! I did have 10 peanut M&Ms throughout the day. I am proud of myself for not eating the whole bag! But now I am moving on to wanting something cheesy. Maybe fried and cheesy. Okay, I have to stop now before I get drool on the keyboard. ;-)

Results are in....

At the end of week one I have lost a total of 3 lbs!!! WOO HOO! Go me! I am feeling much better now and rarely crave sugar. Actually, I tried to drink a Pepsi today and it tasted like syrup to me. So sad to lose my love of Pepsi. Tomorrow I get 3 cheat foods and I am drooling just thinking about all of the possibilities! mmmmmmmmmmm

Day three...much easier!

Today was so much easier than yesterday!! It was also a "cheat day" and that helped. Even without it though I was doing better. I only had 3 hours of sleep yet I still had more energy than yesterday. And for one of my cheat foods I had an apple dumpling (bad Marisa!) and it was almost too sweet for me which has never happened before! I mean, seriously, I can eat frosting right out of the container and still want more. I am starting to feel like I can really do this!!!! I will weigh on Friday to see if I have lost anything!

Sugar Withdrawal!!!!!

WOW! Giving up sugar is not easy! I never realized that I was such a sugar junkie, but I am! I am sitting here thinking about getting my next fix. Tomorrow is a "cheat day" and I have visions of sugar plums dancing in my head. I get 3 items of my choice. What will they be? A Starbucks for sure. YUM! Now do I want a candy bar? Or a juicy burger? Maybe a Pepsi? I don't know. So many options!!! My senses are on overload right now!!!!

I can do this!! I know I can! Well, I think I can. Or at lest I hope that I can! ;-)

D-Day 1

So today is day one of this new lifestyle. I did well between meal one and meal two. By meal three I am feeling the effects of no sugar. I am crashing!!! My regular diet consisted sugar and fat, hence the chubbiness. The only sugar that I have had today was in the form of a banana. So right now I am starving and it is from lack of sugar, I know. I am scheduled to eat again in 20 minutes and I can't wait! I will be glad when the initial first week is over so that I can get used to this. I am also missing my caffeine. =( Technically I can still have tea, coffee and soda, but without sugar why bother?? So I will just have to suffer...........

Tomorrow is here

Everyone says that they will diet....tomorrow. Well, tomorrow is here! Well, tomorrow is tomorrow. ;-) I am getting up in the morning and going grocery shopping for healthy foods. Hubby is ready to start, excited even! We have committed to one solid month of this plan and pray that we both see results. I am not expecting to be skinny in 4 weeks, though it would be nice, but I do expect to lose a few pounds and to feel better. I can just imagine how cute I am going to be a year from now!!! =)

So it is Monday

and I have not started this plan yet. Surprise! Surprise!! I had every intention of starting today but eating healthy is expensive!!! And I have a bunch of food here that I just cannot get rid of only to spend more money on new stuff. So tomorrow I will take an inventory of what I have and what I need and on Wednesday I will go shopping. Until then I am going to use up what I have in the pantry so as it does not go to waste. The rest will go to my skinny family in hopes that they gain a few pounds! ;-)

Once upon a time...

...there was a very chubby girl. She led a life filled with yummy Twinkies, Ding-Dongs and Ho-Ho's. Rivers were filled with Pepsi and fried foods abounded. But the goodies led to tight clothes, cellulite and rolls. And worst of all........plus size clothing stores. So the chubby girl began to consider...*gulp*....a diet. It is such a scary word!!!


I have tried several times in the past, all without much success. Or much effort either. I always fizzle out after a few weeks but this time I am determined to break the cycle and finally lose this weight! Why now? A few reason. We are hoping to begin fertility treatments this winter and I want to be healthy. I am also tired of tired. I worked for 4 hours last night painting and staining a house and I left looking crippled. My back hurt, my feet were swollen and I am still hurting, 12 hours later. And lastly, I wanna look hot!!! What woman doesn't??

So how am I going to do this? With tears I am sure! But I am also going to follow a plan on staxsystem.com and was successfully used by the man on the TLC show 650-lb Virgin. You eat 4-5 small meals a day and you eat a specific carb-veggie-protein combo. It also allows you "cheat" foods 2x a week. This won't be easy as I only eat 2x a day now and rarely before noon. I read that the diet that I have now is called the "sumo diet" as it is what sumo wrestlers do to bulk up. Shocking!!! Maybe I am in the wrong profession???

So this weekend I am going to sit down and plan our meals for the week then go shopping. My goal is to stick to it for 4 weeks and then reevaluate the plan. If I stick to it and do not see results then I will decide then if this is the plan for me. I can't see that it won't work. This is a lower carb plan and my doctor has been telling me for a year now to switch to it. So this blog will follow the adventures of me as I try let the skinny chick inside of out!